I had a spiritual experience.
Rotated
down a foreign axis
uncomfortable deliverance to something of an
unmistakably and pivotal shift of perspective.
Awareness and honest wisdom
the mother to myself.
fallen now and tangled up in
my unacquainted version.
Finally i experienced something new.
From that experience, whatever it was, I still am aware of a moment of self-realization i experienced unlike anything felt before;
I saw as clearly as a simple thought, that my memorable history in life had been lived in a singular, narrow perspective.
i gained awareness of parallel perspectives of time, all happening simultaneously and equally accessible, but only one accessible at one time.
Bands of fluid colour, like ribbons coloured and visually distinguishable flew through the air before me, around the heads of the others in the room and i marveled at their intricacy and profoundness.
I first became aware that my past and current state of awareness is but one perspective and as dynamic beings, we are able to alter and change this awareness thereby affecting our entire basis upon which we view, judge, interact, evaluate, love, hate, act and live in this collective virus called existence.
After becoming aware of this i felt insecure,
as if i had been in a trance or a voodoo spell my entire life.
Unable to see the world differently because the perspective
by which the world was received had not changed.
That the world could potentially become a positive place,
if i altered my mind to see it as such.
There i was, thinking all very deeply
about the unearthed truth of my life’s stale perspective
and my inability to use my head to change my head
because my head is my head and that would be like
an eyeball trying to look at itself.
I was sure that to alter my perspective – to achieve a complete psychic overhaul, i most certainly could not render this action on myself with my own power.
But what came over me was a rapid transition to an alternate awareness.
I thought maybe this was just an epiphany… That’s what i told myself at first anyway. Rarely do random moments of understanding have such strong effects and deep consequences.
As of now, what i still retain from this experience about three days ago is the belief that the mind governing this body through which i exercise the manifestations of that mind is itself not dependable, not stable and that no thought, no idea is too “wild a fantasy” to possibly have some truth. i think instead now that perhaps nothing can not exist if i can believe it to exist. that a new awareness becomes a new awareness simply the moment i become aware of it. it certainly would seem that in this intricate and intricately designed channeling of mind and spiritual powers especially where the two cross could not be a product of input from the person affected, but instead seems much more plausible that there is in fact a omnipotent intangible network of governing bodies, laws, beings (or whatever other term applies to your particular experience) directing our minds state of consciousness, awareness and perception.
Perhaps beyond this awaits a genuine spiritual connection and freedom from the slavery which my mind has not the power to see out of.