Monday, Sep 16
I arrived in HNL around 9pm. Checked into the Courtyard. Met up with T in the lobby. I was already into an IPA. T and I walked over to meet L for drinks at Green Lady. We caught up on how work had been, what L got up to on the island over the weekend while her bf came to visit her. After drinks, L checked out of her hotel and came to the Courtyard and slept over at Trianne’s
Tuesday, Sep 17
Hosted meetings all morning from 6:00 AM, Tough because I was up late the night before.
Took the cross-departmental meeting for Waikiki from the Waikiki store at 10AM
T L and I had our “very important meeting” at tequila shots at Aloha Amigo at 9pm. We picked up some Asahi and vodka drinks I think.
T and L and I drank a lot and T passed out on L’s lanai. T and I took L down to bed.
After T was in bed, L and I went back to her room. I felt a pang of, “you shouldn’t” but I did. I suggested we take edibles at L was in so I went and grabbed them.
We took them at midnight and tripped so hard. After staring into the world for an hour that felt like 4, I managed to summon the words,
“Do you want to get into your bed?”
And L said “For what?”
“I dunno, watch TV, I said”
I wanted to stay over.
L said “I worry about how that would look. I think we should call it”
I left but felt disappointed and embarrassed that I had overstepped.
Wednesday
Woke up feeling like garbage. Not hungover, just embarrassed for how I crossed a line and put myself out there and was put in my place.
We did the pre-walk through with ops. Working was fun. I told her I felt embarrassed with how I acted last night. She told me not to worry about it.
In the afternoon, around 4 or 5 I went to the beach. Texted L and T to come meet me and shared my location. They showed up at some point. The three of us must have drank a bunch. Not sure where we ate. We didn’t see T that night.
L and I must have made it back to the restaurant and we tried to work through some deficiencies. Around midnight we were done.
After, we decided to go swimming in the ocean. It was a truly peak life experience. We brought a couple drinks. It was too late top buy booze from the ABC. We thought about whether to go back to the hotel to get in our swimsuits or just go straight to the beach. She decided we should just go straight to the beach since I had a towel I had left in the office. We walked to surfboard alley and down the beach past a couple homeless dudes to the Royal Hawaiian beach. I quickly ripped off all my clothes and ran to the ocean. Wasn’t sure if she would follow my lead. In the water, it was so dark I couldn’t make out whether she was naked or not. The ocean was so black and warm. Like swimming in a comforting space – the sky and water becoming one. It was so relieving in the water after a long hot day.
“You should go in first” and then I’ll follow you” she said. So I did.
I was nearly dried off, putting my shorts on when she approached. I made out her trimmed bush in the dim light but not much else. It wasn’t until this point I realized she too was naked.
I can’t remember how we got back to the hotel. We were in my room drinking on my Lanai. At 3 or 4 am we decided we should go to bed. Before she left she asked if we could hug. I was overcome with joy that she wanted to. That she wanted closeness with me.
“I’m so glad you asked.” I said. It was such a nice hug.
She didn’t let go. Her body felt so good. It was the first time I had ever touched her. She was small, and so strong. Her lower back was right and muscular. Her waist was thin and so hot. I cradled the back of her head, my fingers in her hair. We said good night and she went to her room. I can’t remember how I felt.
This was supposed to be L’s last night in HNL.
Thursday
In the morning, L had check out at 11. I offered she could leave her bag in my room and shower later before the flight. I met her back there to do the drop.
We did the walk throughs and L and I did deficiencies.
We left work at 3pm Tara, Tri, L and I. We went to the hotel and L came up to get her bag from my room to put in Tri’s “for optics” she said.
I drank an IPA in a few minutes while getting my swimsuit on and put a few more in my bag. We all walked together to the beach and setup our towels. Tara, L, me, Tri. We each had a couple drinks and debriefed on how the turnover has been going the last couple days a ways to improve the process. At 5, we all went in the water and played in the waves. At 5:30 we headed back and I made a dinner rezo at Zigu for 6:30. We stopped at Aloha Amigo at 6:50 to get tequila shots at 7. Turns out they only do $3 shots at 9 and 11. So we ordered shots anyway which were actually doubles. We lost track of time and suddenly it was 6:30. I messaged our group that we were having tequila trouble and would meet at the restaurant at 6:45. We quickly got changed and headed to Zigu.
At Zigu L and I each had an IPA. And then the table ordered a bottle of sake. She wrote “we need to hug” on her phone and showed it to me. I said “yes we do”.
By 8:00 when it was time for L and Gus to leave, I was already missing her. We ordered double margaritas. Tri and I made jokes about calling a bomb threat to stop her plane from leaving.
Gus called an uber for them and they left at 8:30. I didn’t get a hug.
As soon as she left I missed her so much. I texted her “L!!!” We left the restaurant at 8:45 and Tri, Tara and I headed to the store, me to work on some deficiencies and Tri to make sure the keys were in the lock box. Braden and Tyler were there drinking beers. I was pretty drunk. I tried installing a door stop on the women’s washroom partition door. The first hinge stop broke. Then the wall stop broke.
At 9 she texted me “oh no” but I didn’t know why.
A few minutes later she called maybe around 9:20. I was lying on the floor of the women’s washroom.
I picked up and said “I’m so glad it’s you”.
She said “I think I missed my flight.” She didn’t know why. She said they wouldn’t let her through security. Maybe it was because she was too late. Maybe she couldn’t find her passport. Maybe she was too drunk.
I told her to call an Uber and come back. She sounded unsure. I asked her if she wanted me to call her one. She said no, she could figure it out. I said okay, call me when you’re close and I’ll meet you at the courtyard and I’ll help you figure out what to do.
Trianne and Tara were texting me to find out where I was. “I’m in the women’s restroom at Earls” I told them. I guess they had already headed home.
L called me from her Uber. She was so embarrassed that she missed her flight. I was sad for her that she felt so bad. But I was also so happy that she wasn’t leaving. I wanted to help her and I wanted to see her. I told her to send me her location so I could know when to meet her at the hotel.
I told her she could stay with Trianne.
“Can I stay with you?” She asked me
“Let’s talk when you get here” I said.
“That sounds serious.”
Of course you can stay with me but let’s talk it out. I think I said.
Trying to “do the right thing”. called Trianne that L missed her flight and could she stay with her. I met up with L at the Courtyard lobby. We hugged and then sat for a moment. She couldn’t tell me why they wouldn’t let her through security. But that she was so embarrassed. We made a plan – I would help her book a new flight. She came up to my room. While I was booking the flight on my laptop at the desk, she would come up and put her arms around me, her head next to mine. It felt so nice. It was hard to book a flight as drunk as I was. Eventually it got done. She would be on the same flight as me the next day.
Then I got in my pyjamas and brushed my teeth. When I came back I told her she could sleep in the second bed. “I am going to sleep in your bed.” She said, and climbed into my bed. She was wearing jogging pants and a tank top. I said, “Do you want to get in your pajamas.”
“Okay.” She said and took off her pants. We cuddled, I spooned her. Then we made out. I kissed her little mouth. She gave me tongue. I liked it. I was hard as hell. She pushed me over and staddled me, grinding on me.
She climbed off me, “woah, woah, woah. What are we doing?”
“Look, we just can’t fuck.” I said.
“Is that the line?” She said.
“Yes.”
Back to making out. I ground my hard cock into her thrusting crotch.
I pulled up her shirt and sucked on her left nipple. It was small and got hard. It was so hot. She was so hot.
We were both very drunk, and we soon fell asleep, holding each other.
I woke up at 2am. I couldn’t sleep. I was thinking about the store and the deficiencies I meant to do that night before leaving. I quietly got up and got dressed and went to the store. I worked until 4:30, knocked off some caulking, installed a door catch for the beverage station door, and repaired the wheels on the host stand. I headed back to the hotel at 4:30. L was still asleep but woke up when I came in. I was dirty and soaked I sweat. I jumped in the shower. We packed and called an uber at 5. We arrived at the hotel at 5:30 and checked my bag.
This time we made it through security. This was still one of the hardest times going through an airport in my long travel career. Alcohol and little sleep over four nights.
In the lobby, we cuddled and held hands. It felt like I had a partner. And ally. L and I against the world. We were able to switch our seats to be next to each other. The whole flight we cuddled and tried to sleep. We talked a lot about damage control and fantasized about what it would be like to be together but then snapped to reality and talked about how it could never work. We aligned that we would keep it absolutely secret. No one at work could know. Our significant others couldn’t know. We deleted every suggestive text and message and photo from our phones. Once we landed in vancouver, we would be back to coworkers and this would stop.