I’ve played out the tape

I’ve played out the tape and it makes no sense for either of us. For her – she wants kids and a family. I can’t give that to her. I want her to have everything she wants and to be happy. so for us to be together would deprive her of her happiness. So we can’t be together.

I feel so out of place now in my house. With this wife I have been with for 18 years but feel less for than someone I met four months ago. Carrie feels like a roommate. Looking back in these blog posts, she has for 10 years or more.

Is it just lust?

How do I deal with this most powerful feeling

I’m obsessed

Strange and curious draw to someone