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yup… still feel alone. wow, this is uncomfortable. i don’t know what i am supposed to do with myself. crazy. waiting all day and night for that text message, that phone call, that msn message, that post on the blog, to affirm to me that someone is thinking about me. wow.

just took apart two of my computers and mixed the parts up and put them back together. then took them apart again and put them back in to their orignal forms.

now i’m sitting on my bed thinking about what nick does when he is alone. uhm. might read a book? uhm. might watch a movie by myself? all i want is to cuddle with her. and i can almost make myself believe i would be doing it for the right reasons.

bullocks.