cuba

So yeah. I got home from work and showered and now i’m smoking a Cuban cigar, a Cohiba Esplendido. This really is the best brand of cigar i have ever smoked. And i have a box of them. Well, half a box now. I gave 12 of them away to some of my friends whom i knew would appreciate a good cigar. Cory, Devitt, Ronan, Carl, Elliot, Rob, Chris, Ben and three for Ted cause he is my boss and it seemed like an appropriate thing to do. That’s 11. I’m missing someone. Oh well. I feel so calm write now. My body is pretty stoned on this here cigar. Freud smoked 20 cigars a day and swore by them. He said he couldn’t write unless he had his cigar. He also became addicted to cocaine.

So i was in Cuba for the last week, June 3-10. To sum it up: I had a really relaxing, mind-expanding trip. I’ve pretty much devulged all the stories from Cuba to people verbally, so I really don’t feel like writing it all down in here. It would take wuite a while. Many stories. While i was there, experiencing the heat, the insects, the resort, the beach, the people, the entertainment, total removal from my home life I made a list of words, to be later associated – just sort of a sketch of things there so i would not foget them. I’d like to post that here:

anorexic cows
starved dogs w/ fleas
bird cages in streets
banana trees
sugar plantations
horse-drawn carriages
manual labour
prison camp
small ponmy-like horses
thunder like a volcano
passport checks
pretty women
1950’s cars
chicas
they all like my clothing
anything for a peso
open sewage/garbage
baseball stadiums
airport tax
Michael and Michael
Fumigator
crocodile farm
Lazaro
Liset
green. yellow. pink. blue. white.
brick and mortar
parish
cathedral
catholicism
4 hrs to Trinidad
worst 30 minutes of my life (shitty pants)
no toilet seats
no toilet paper
no toilet lid
mosquitos
cave rave
bats
turkey vultures
crab in the pool
beach w/ alex

yeah. I don’t know what else. this is a boring post. not really in to it 100%. but this cigar is pretty damn good. had a good conversation with cory last night about emotional dependence in relationships, and how much it licks ass. a good way to tell if that’s the case in any given relationship is if you can define a sudden onset of deep neediness, like a craving to be with that person, to have that person close, to have their attention and approval and then to notice whether that deep need is transient – whether it dissapears in a relatively short time period. Say, if one moment you really desire that person and then a few hours later don’t really need them very badly, or are pretty content without them. What’s actually going on is an emotionally-based need, and to fulfill that need with the other person is practically like using someone as a drug. it was a good conversation and he was pretty dead-on.