jealousy

feels like I am choking.
like my airway is collapsing and my lungs are getting tight.
mouth is dry and my eyes hurt.
i feel like puking
and i am going to throw my cell phone across the room when i hang up.
my joints stiffen up.
my stomach turns and adrenalin shoots in to my bloodstream.
it was all just a thought.
i thought it would be okay.
i didn’t think i’d feel like this.
i don’t want to don’t need to think like this.
physical symptoms making my thoughts real.

you gotta censor what you write when you know who’s reading it.

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  1. GloreusLoreus Avatar

    then i came to your side, out from the cold, and the choking ceased as I gave you my breath with the merging of our lips, and we warmed eachother’s hearts…*sigh*…i love you beautiful boy…xoxoxo (i know u love the cheese baby, cuz amongst the cheese lies truth ;)…)

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