judith

I’m feeling sick. I think I am coming down with a flu. It came upon me really suddenly and now I am bundled in clothes but still really cold. my feet are freezing. my head just feels all wrong and i ache. i wish i had a girl to take care of me. make me soup and make me go to bed and tuck me in.

I bought a new computer on friday. Got paid 2200 bucks and spent 1400 on a new fast-ass comp. Funnily enough I am typing this on my PowerBook, not my new computer. Ah… living in excess… strange. I feel a little guilty. the sole purpose of my new comp is for gaming. I’m sure eventually I’ll learn how to manage my finances… but that doesn;t seem to be a part of my life yet. Better than buying an ounce of meth, i guess.

my hands are not my own. they are worker’s hands. rough and leather. i have callouses everywhere and a constant scar or two.

Jesse told me if i learn QuarkXPress i could get a job with her ad company doing pre-press work. hard to learn a program i don’t have. trying to download it but can’t find it anywhere. it’s several thousand dollars… so buying it is out. I’m sure i could learn it well within a week once i get it.

Throwing stone wheat thins in my chicken noodle soup.

maybe i’ll have to take tomorrow off work

i think it’s funny that our society smiles bearing teeth in photos. I think it’s kinda scary looking and not a very attractive pose.

did some work on my amends list this weekend. now just the willingess to overcome my fears and make my amends.

soup is mostly hot water.

i’m gonna quit smoking before my birthday

i’m gonna just write more tomorrow, when i actually feel passionate about the day’s events.