As for being an alcoholic. I go with the association because I have chosen to see alcohol and meth as identical in the addiction one can have to each. From the way I’ve heard alcoholics talk about their drinking, I used the same way they drank and felt similar despair in the darkness of my using as they did in their drinking.
Alcohol was never really a particular obsession of mine. I hated it’s effect for the most part. I was never a good drinker. I puked everytime, and could never control the speed at which I drank. I drank beer and liqour like water, so I would get drunk too fast and totally bypass the cusp at which the delicate effect of booze is most appealing. Meth was more attractive to me.
I think if there was no drugs in my situation when I got in to them I would have learned to drink and really become addicted to the effect of alcohol. However, that was not the case.
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