Check in

I woke up. I’m really dehydrated and drinking a couple glasses of water after sleep dehydration is one of the most satisfying things.

For the record: Drove to Santa Barbara for the weekend with Rob and Anna. It took us 24 hours to drive each way. Gas in the Subaru was about 280 USD split 3 ways, about 113 CAD each at the current exchange rate which is in our favor (1.12). I had a really good time in hindsight, and I think the majority of my time down there was a really amazing experience. The highlight of our trip was the first few hours on the road on the way back, somewhere between Santa Barbara and San Francisco. Anna and Rob and I played ‘Truth’ where we asked each other questions that had to be answered honestly., which was sort of like peer assessment at Edgewood but more honest . It was really inspiring to hear Anna and Rob’s deepest reflections about themselves and their feedback on for me.

Anna told me my biggest weakness, character defect is my tendency to let other people affect me due to my expectations in relationships and the way in which i give my power over to them when I desire their approval and attention. It cheapens me. She accurately described my needs for attention, particularly from females, which more often than not negatively impact my life and leave me cheapened and frail.

At the meeting tonight I ran in to a guy who I haven’t seen in almost three years. We rolled together when I was in the lowest point of my using. We went to high school together prior to that. I’ve known him for almost 8 years, and to see him at a meeting was truly inspiring. A new bond has been forged between us.

That’s all for now. Going to smoke another Pall Mall and try to go back to sleep for a couple hours till work.