I didn’t pray when I woke up this morning. When I realized I hadn’t I was listening to Heresy. God is dead and no one cares. atleast when I don’t care.
It was like looking at myself under a magnifying glass all day. Brutal self-obsession. I don’t like to be there anymore. Times when i literally walk around in circles because i can’t decide which direction to walk.
I hope to wake inspired tomorrow. I am planning to start my day right. I am wondering what the fuck I am doing these days. I am accomplishing nothing. It feels like summer in high school. nothing to do and the pending doom of september and back to school. I haven’t even been to the fucking beach yet. Even this blog is pissing me off. If i just whack off to some porn and go to bed everything will be okay. I can sleep then, and dream. And when I wake up i will be inspired. I will be inspired by my dreams. I will pray and will feel good about myself. I won’t hate being alive in this ground hog day existence.
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